First day of the rest of my life

Finally managed to get the time off work needed to get into the gym, sign up, and start working out. Today was pretty light, just trying to figure where i'm at right now. Not as promising as i'd hoped, but I look at it as further motivation.

Bench - 100 lbs, 3 reps.
Squat - 160 lbs, 3 reps.
Deadlift - 160 lbs, 3 reps.

Then I just spent the rest of the time there messing around with some of the machines, press and row machines mostly. I'm definitely not where I had hoped I was, but that's just incentive to get in there and get going hardcore. No excuses, just training.

Life sucks; or, Beast Mode vs. Bitch Mode.

Sometimes, no matter how hard you try, life just likes to screw you over. In my life thus far, I don't think I've had a more miserable summer. I really can't get into a lot of it, it all being personal, but suffice it to say between the stress of life and the sweat of working with power tools in the summer with no air conditioning, I went from 142 lbs back down to 126. I stopped exercising, stopped eating good, and just got to being downright miserable. Honestly, if i'd kept with the training i'd probably not have gotten so miserable, but in a sea of frustration I went from Beast Mode to Bitch Mode. It happens.

Well, it's now December and within the past two weeks here, shortly before Thanksgiving, I finally got the motivation I needed to turn myself back around. Still going to school at nights, still working full time, but that's no excuse to stay out of the gym or to live on fast food (which honestly made my finances worse, but like I said, Bitch Mode). I'm going from staying up late playing games and surfing the web to getting up early and hitting the gym. I've got a lot of weight to put back on and frankly, I've got only acceptable excuse, and that's not having money left after paying bills. And that's just another motivator to get myself in order.

I'm just no longer comfortable being the person I used to be. Blowing money on trivial junk, being a shut-in with only a few close friends, never going anywhere, never doing anything. No more. It's time I stopped being something worthy of contempt and became something worthy of admiration. No more whining, no more excuses. Only success. No more toleration of weakness. Weakness must be punished. Only success will be permitted.