Sometimes, no matter how hard you try, life just likes to screw you over. In my life thus far, I don't think I've had a more miserable summer. I really can't get into a lot of it, it all being personal, but suffice it to say between the stress of life and the sweat of working with power tools in the summer with no air conditioning, I went from 142 lbs back down to 126. I stopped exercising, stopped eating good, and just got to being downright miserable. Honestly, if i'd kept with the training i'd probably not have gotten so miserable, but in a sea of frustration I went from Beast Mode to Bitch Mode. It happens.
Well, it's now December and within the past two weeks here, shortly before Thanksgiving, I finally got the motivation I needed to turn myself back around. Still going to school at nights, still working full time, but that's no excuse to stay out of the gym or to live on fast food (which honestly made my finances worse, but like I said, Bitch Mode). I'm going from staying up late playing games and surfing the web to getting up early and hitting the gym. I've got a lot of weight to put back on and frankly, I've got only acceptable excuse, and that's not having money left after paying bills. And that's just another motivator to get myself in order.
I'm just no longer comfortable being the person I used to be. Blowing money on trivial junk, being a shut-in with only a few close friends, never going anywhere, never doing anything. No more. It's time I stopped being something worthy of contempt and became something worthy of admiration. No more whining, no more excuses. Only success. No more toleration of weakness. Weakness must be punished. Only success will be permitted.
I was wondering how you're doing now, 6 months later. Summer is upon us, and I'm hoping that you're going to be able to face it better than you did last year. Still praying.
ReplyDelete